I wonder if he ever needs it too, needs to do things to me. I wonder this when it's been awhile and I really, really want/need to be bound, controlled, impacted, made to feel him, and, well..... used. It is of course tied into sexual tension, arousal and release, but the context is so much more really. I crave it to bring me back to myself, and remind me of who I am, and to stop the flying around mentally and physically.
Does it do anything at all like that for him? Or does it work in the converse for him? Or is it just that he likes things better when I'm more settled? Or is it just because he knows I want it?
Or is it purely sexual? He says he likes sex, a lot (that's a little joke between us - meant by him to indicate that I can't quite seem to fathom the meaning sex really holds for him). So maybe it is something purely sexual, maybe that is a lot to him???
I'm only wondering mind you. He (and others) have made it clear that the way things work for me aren't anything like how they work for him and that I really can't relate and shouldn't try to.
But I do wonder, or rather I should say, I hope it all does something for him. In the end, I don't like to think of myself as a needy, greedy girl - even when that's clearly the case.