Plenty of things in my life are complicated; there are things i take very, very seriously; and i can take just about anything and overthink it into stupidly impossible complexity.
Some things though are very simple.
I miss my husband when we are apart.
I am needy - except when i'm not. Right now i am.
I am incredibly horny, and I need to be beaten, to be hurt, badly.
And, right or wrong, this is how and who I am, i can't possibly deny it.
And I am overwhelmed with whatever you call that feeling of wanting to submit, wanting to sit at his feet, to offer myself completely to him, to have him take in whatever way he likes, even it it's just to allow me to be.
Of course it isn't about me and my wants or Him jumping to accommodate whatever mood i happen to be in - this i know.
I also know that he likes me horny. He likes satisfying that need, and he likes tormenting me with that need.
He likes hurting me. And he likes tormenting me and manipulating me with that need also. And he gets just as frustrated when all the rest of life gets in the way of that aspect of us.
And he likes me submissive - he likes that very much - he would like me to be that more often.
Maybe i should work on keeping those things as uncomplicated as they are in my head right now....