There are two words that I had found off-putting. Actually, they both made me fearful and defensive and a bit indignant. Of course it is the meanings of a word, the connotations and implications of the concept a word represents, that are important to us, not the word itself; that is very true in this case. Over time, I have become less indignant and defensive about each of these words (ideas), although still somewhat fearful. I wouldn't say I understand them any better now, they are not simple ideas for me. I still find them off putting and fear provoking, but also intriguing, hopeful, attractive. I think I have come to want what I think they offer.