Have you ever.....

found yourselves sitting on the sofa with him, waiting... waiting....
for a very awake child to fall asleep (teenagers should not stay up so late)
watching hockey even though only one of you has even a passing interest in the game
waiting and listening for movement from the child's room,
for all the sounds of not sleeping to cease

because he's been gone for a long time, and you were before that,
and now it's been a very long time
and he has been texting his thoughts and his plans and even his dreams,
in which you figure prominantly
or at least your body does

and you've sent pictures, as requested
and playing with yourself,
even with the toys
barely takes the edge off
the desire grows when you are unaddressed, unattended to

but so do the not so nice feelings:
not sleeping makes you tired,
missing him makes you lonley and resentful,
being without his influence makes you antsy, bratty
lacking his control lets you grow off-balance
and you start to doubt

and over the time apart, the need grows
you can feel it in your skin,
and in your psyche

and now he is so close, right next to you
teasing you even
pinching, tweaking, mmmm...kissing
making promises about setting you straight again
soon
as soon as the child falls asleep