PHYSICAL - turning away, closing my legs, pulling against the restraints, pushing him away
FRANTIC - I have a feeling that he starts having his fun at the point that I begin to move from fun to just a little bit fearful
More FAR-REACHING - resistance can also be mental: it can be disobedience, or hesitance, or reluctance, or surliness, or silliness. He teases and goads me to try to resist him, but he also tells me he wants me compliant, obedient....
FRUSTRATING - for him, or maybe that's not quite the right word - exasperating, incomprehensible maybe, or maybe it really is just frustrating. Because i resist in many ways - i disobey (temporarily), I hesitate, I'm surly, I'm silly, i try to talk my way out of things...
My FALLBACK more often than it should be. I truly do worry that compliant will get boring very quickly. That he will lose interest once he has me so easily (in all the ways). The well broken in horse, or pair of shoes for that matter, may be useful and reliable, comfortable, but they aren't interesting, or desirable.
A FRONT sometimes - because - see above. And because he says he likes it when i try to resist, and he says he wants me compliant - and I can't be both, so i choose to believe he really wants the former and not the latter.
FUTILE - none-the-less, but still very confusing.