He can get me where he wants me.
We've spent the past three years learning that - he to move me around to the way he wants me, and I to cooperate with him when he does.
I'm not sure that's quite enough though.
Cooperating with him is a step, it's something, but it's fairly passive - more work sometimes, but mostly not.
It feels good, I like it, i want his hands on me and his power over me.
But it's destructive to the Us - for me to wander off and wait for him to come get me.
I have to learn to get myself to where he wants me.
Yes! There is something of a requirement to be active in your submission... why didn't anyone tell us that going in???
ReplyDeleteYou mean it isn't all about me?!? This will require some adjustment... I'm workign on it. thanks.
DeleteThat is the tricky part.
ReplyDeleteIt really, really is sometimes. Thank you.
DeleteSometimes I can get myself there but I have learned it greatly depends on a lot of other outside factors at the time. I think the toughest part is keeping yourself there when life gets in the way.
ReplyDeleteThat is absolutely true - when everything else pulls at me - it is hard. in the end, I'm not willing to give up life - or this - so i keep trying. Thanks.
DeleteWell, crap! yes, if you really insist on making a point of it. (Grumble Grumble) It's nowhere near as much fun and requires me to actually-you know, SUBMIT. Being conquered is much easier.
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Well, yes, it is deflating to run up against this - and not as nice for me - i wonder which is nicer for him? thank you.
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