Thursday, October 11, 2012

He can - but can I?

He can get me where he wants me.

We've spent the past three years learning that - he to move me around to the way he wants me, and I to cooperate with him when he does.

I'm not sure that's quite enough though.

Cooperating with him is a step, it's something, but it's fairly passive - more work sometimes, but mostly not.

It feels good, I like it, i want his hands on me and his power over me.

But it's destructive to the Us - for me to wander off and wait for him to come get me.

I have to learn to get myself to where he wants me.

8 comments:

  1. Yes! There is something of a requirement to be active in your submission... why didn't anyone tell us that going in???

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    1. You mean it isn't all about me?!? This will require some adjustment... I'm workign on it. thanks.

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    1. It really, really is sometimes. Thank you.

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  3. Sometimes I can get myself there but I have learned it greatly depends on a lot of other outside factors at the time. I think the toughest part is keeping yourself there when life gets in the way.

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    1. That is absolutely true - when everything else pulls at me - it is hard. in the end, I'm not willing to give up life - or this - so i keep trying. Thanks.

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  4. Well, crap! yes, if you really insist on making a point of it. (Grumble Grumble) It's nowhere near as much fun and requires me to actually-you know, SUBMIT. Being conquered is much easier.
    Sigh

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    1. Well, yes, it is deflating to run up against this - and not as nice for me - i wonder which is nicer for him? thank you.

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