Sometimes, not often mind you because i am really most often just very demure and compliant, but every once in awhile, i get into a mood that just won't quit.
This mood was cute and playful - or irritating and smart-assed, depending on whom you ask. And it wasn't the mood he was looking for. He had a plan and that plan involved me being quiet and open and pleasing and - well - submissive. He warned me that if i didn't get on board with the plan *now*, that he would make sure i did. Of course, i was instantly intrigued and all thoughts of self control went out the window. So i kept pushing.
Topping from the bottom? Certainly i manipulated the situation - he told me what he wanted, and i ignored that looking to see how he would respond. Maybe i would like the response?? So on the surface - maybe people would call it topping.
On the other hand, we know each other well. When he really doesn't want to play games - he just doesn't play. He warns once, then tells me he will stop and roll over and leave me alone if I don't comply. And I've pushed, and he has done just that, and frankly - it sucks and i won't push that way again.
This was not that. This time, he told me that if i didn't settle down it would "get intense." Sounds like a gauntlet being laid - no? Who could resist that? Not I!
He has in the past used the clover clamps always just hard enough and just long enough; he seems to magically know just when to stop. This time went well beyond that, to the point that i was furious and genuinely worried, besides being very, very focused on the pain. That got my attention.
Then he turned attention into complete submission. There is something about trying to get his whole fist up there that demands my entire focus be on him. It requires me to be completely trusting and totally open to him (I know - duh). And it always produces an overwhelming flood of sensations and emotions. He got me right to quiet and open and pleasing -and oh so submissive.
And it was a very, very good experience for me on a lot of levels. But it leaves me wondering if he would have preferred I comply straight off, or if he enjoys the whole dance on some level as well.
greengirl,
ReplyDeleteThere is such a fine line between cute and playful and irratating. Sometimes a girl just wants to play, or be played with. It sounds like you really got put in your submissive place.
Love,
serenity
" But it leaves me wondering if he would have preferred I comply straight off, or if he enjoys the whole dance on some level as well."
ReplyDeleteI think he probably enjoys it. This kind of thing makes life more interesting. He probably would have enjoyed immediate compliance, too, only in a different way.
By the way, I hate cold water splashed on me, whether on someone's hands or any other way. It's an unpleasant shock to the whole system.
That's an interesting question. I have no idea, but it's fun to ponder.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a wonderfully intense experience. It's nice to find that submissive space.
aisha
Serenity,
ReplyDeleteThe fun part is deciding when you've crossed the line, since it's in different places on different days. And yes, this worked - quite effectively.
Malcolm,
He does say that he doesn't want me to stop being playful, i guess i will keep working on learning what and where and when. And, while i'm sure that is very effective - no thank you.
Aisha,
It was also good to know he could and would - so effectively.