I have fb friends who post their feelings - any and all of them - all. the. time. I'm much more of a fb reader than writer; i'm not even so comfortable talking about the things i do, big, small, good, bad, indifferent.... It just isn't me.
I can't imagine posting my feelings to the public like that. I know - somehow putting my relationship and sexual kinks down on paper here is no problem - I truly don't understand it either.
One friend in particular uses the tag "grateful" a lot, to her friends, her family, her God, her husband... I think about that. Her posts strike me as silly and sometimes a little desperate, and sometimes a little self-righteous. I know her though - and she is none of those things. She is genuine, compassionate, passionate, and humble.
The problem is with me. Whatever it is that makes me uncomfortable, that blocks me from expressing more publicly the gratitude that i feel deeply, well - it's not good, or right.
I am incredibly grateful for my husband. For his integrity and character, his work and his dedication to us, his family. For his compassion. For his thoughtfulness and selflessness. For his depth.
And i am incredibly grateful to my husband. Thank you for being open, thank you for being willing to take risks and thank you for holding the lines you hold. Thank you for taking care of me, and for taking care of us. Thank you for being the example and for holding the expectations our boys need. Thank you for listening and considering and thank you for making decisions. Thank you for taking it all seriously, thank you for laughing and smiling. Thank you for the joy.