Wednesday, January 1, 2014
That may take it a bit too far - but there was plenty the past year that was just plain hard.
I have had the exquisite luxury the past two days of putting aside many other concerns, knowing that many of the things that had weighed me down so were now resolved, or at least moved on and out of my control, or in a holding pattern.
I spent yesterday preparing to host friends for New Year's dinner - a long tradition for us, which i love. I cleaned, and prepped, and cooked, and prepped, and cooked. The kids did their thing and my husband did his. As the day got later, he joined me in the kitchen. We opened a bottle of wine and finished the cooking as friends joined us.
Life moves too quickly, is too fragmented, is influenced by outside obligations so often....I do love making wonderful meals and I love sharing the table and time with friends. In so many ways, of necessity, we work together rather than my serving him , and in this as well, but he likes this, he appreciates that I do this well.
Today the visiting teens are in the basement with my teens enjoying the luxury of their break - all day video games. My husband has a friend to watch football with - all day: his perfect New Year's Day. And I have been free to browse, nap, read, and lie around guilt free.
I thought no deep thoughts, made no grand plans, accomplished nothing noteworthy, I let my mind go completely - and it went quite willingly.
Tomorrow the new year will start, and I think maybe i will be ready for it.