This is a supremely non-kinky post. It is a little winey, and a bit petty, and entirely real life.
My husband had a very last minute opportunity to go out of town with his best friend, for something fun, for this weekend. And i am glad he had this chance. He doesn't get to do 'guy' things often, he doesn't get to spend time with his friend often - at least not without wives and all the kids hanging out too. And he almost never gets to go do something fun, for himself.
But I'm also bummed. We don't get many quiet weekends at home, we don't get a lot of time for just the two of us, and we don't get a lot of time as a family without all the other activities and obligations. I don't like to share him.
He asked me if i would be okay with him going. He's not one of those (likely only fictional anyhow) Doms who really makes it all only about Him. He never ignores my needs and feelings and he certainly puts the well being of his family first.
And maybe there are people out there who's submission extends far enough or is perfect enough that they would feel only the happiness for him, glad he's able to take advantage of the opportunity - without the disappointment. I'm not one of those people.
I wanted him to go, but i am disappointed. I think he had trouble understanding how i can be both at the same time. If i said i want him to go - that is that. If i were going to be disappointed about it, I should have said i didn't want him to go. But i feel both, and i am rational enough to know that really - i want him to be enjoying himself.
So now i need to suck it up, get over it, and make it a fun weekend for me and the boys.