Well -ok - not in the true sense of the word....
Most of the time I can control myself. For most everything i can maintain position, work through it, or at least limit my movements.
But when he holds my hair hard with one hand and the side of my head with the other, lays his body over mine to pin down my arms, throws his leg over mine to pin my legs, turns my head to the side...
Then sticks his tongue in my ear, and blows -
I scream, i panic, i buck and fight and elbow and kick.
It's a wrestling match i will never win
It's the one thing i really just can't stand.
I can't work through it, or control myself, or lie still.
I hate it!